Back to December

Dear Blog, I know it has been awhile. A long while. You know I will never leave you. So here I am! I have come back for you :)
I think I need to explain why I was gone for so long hahaha. After I finished my finals on the twelfth, I went for a family trip to Penang and Cameron Highlands. Later on, I spent the week with my cousins going around town, screaming over the X Factor (nah, I don't scream. They do. I just curse XD) anddddd not forgetting the craziest shit - grabbing McD at 1a.m.! Okay, things have really changed after I got my driving license. I'm their all time chauffeur as well as on-call taxi driver now -.-


First of allllll, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! And congratulations to the 13-year-old ridiculously talented little girl, Carly Rose Sonenclar who did not win the X Factor title but a huge fan base that will definitely act as a supporting force for her career later on.


Here are some pictures of the little diva.

 Her version of "Your Song" and "As Long As You Love Me" are my favorites :)

The runner-up on the second season of The X Factor USA.

You guys can find out more about her via twitter @CarlyRoseMusic ! :) 

Here are some pics from the awesome family trip!

Penang Hill. Been there like thrice -.- 

Nothing to do...means camwhore session! HAHAHAHA

Mah sis and cousin insisted on getting their pic taken!

Rose Valley @ Cameron Highlands. 

Cacti with assorted colours! 

Before my holidays, I wanted to do so many things during this holidays - go Singapore and KL, mountain climbing, climbing, high tea with friends everyday, andddd create a Twitter account! IN THE END, I HAVE ONLY DONE THE LAST THING (Apparently the most insignificant one -.-)  Follow me on twitter @Nickwkc ! :)
I'm just too lazy to go out. My bed has been missing me for so long and now it's time to spend some precious time with it :)

So this is the book I'm holding all day :) 

"What if your entire world was built on a lie?"

Switched by Amanda Hocking.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS PEOPLE! :)

《上了大学必须要感谢父母》

那四年，我們好像很有錢，走進宿舍的時候會買一杯連老爸都捨不得買的飲料。
那四年，我們好像很有錢，想著要替男女朋友買什麼禮物，回家的時候卻不能給媽媽買一條最便宜的項鍊。
那四年，我們好像很有錢，爸媽的手機只有電話和簡訊的功能，它的價值不足我們一個月的生活費，
然而它最大的意義是在你需要的時候它會告訴你爸爸媽媽在惦記著你。


什麼時候，我們忘記了自己兒時做英雄的念頭，只學會了在餐廳裡叫著上菜上酒。
什麼時候，網絡的虛擬變成生活的虛榮，讓你和別人聊天時不以為恥，反以為榮。
什麼時候，爸媽不再講他們過去的苦日子，而從腰帶上擠出兒女的燈紅酒綠。
什麼時候，我們學會中午醒來先用腳趾打開桌上的電腦，撥給麥當勞的外送電話。


父母吃盡千辛萬苦送我們來這樣一個可讀可不讀的大學，而我們卻替父母享受著他們永遠享受不到的幸福。
大學的魔力是讓人覺得所有的虛榮都是心安理得。
但我依然不知道大學應該在我的生命裡賦予什麼意義，只記得老爸常說：要想好好的生活，每一分錢都有它的意義。


那四年，我們真的沒有錢。儘管你嘴裡唱的盡是社會裡的花花綠綠、愛我愛你。
那四年，我們真的沒有錢。當你有能力賺錢的時候便不再把無知當作個性。
那四年，就讓它只是那4年，我希望我們未來會很有錢，讓爸媽過上幸福的日子，去補償曾經為了向父母要錢而說過的謊言。


我們的大學之路，即承載了我們個人學習的責任，也承載了家長、老師、親朋好友的期待，如果僅僅以一張大學的門票回報他們，未免過於輕賤。
四年大學畢業時的纍纍碩果，才對得起這張門票，無愧於這四年最好的青春年華。

別告訴我你一定點虛榮心都沒有，每個人都會有虛榮心，只是多少的程度不一樣罷了。

來 測試你的虛榮心指數 有多少！哈哈哈XD

本人的測驗結果是10%！哈哈哈哈。

佳惠說 這是必經之路吧，只要不太over就可以了。

千萬別讓周遭的環境改變當初那最單純的你，請記得當初對自己的承諾。

"Don't lose your moral compass. You don't have to learn it the hard way." - Dr. Richard Teo

Bookworm mode on!

Studying in the library now.



It's great to be alone at times :)







Finally learned how to do a mirrored image myself! Hahahah.

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Truth and Lies

谎言
一句句的谎言代表着什么
当你开始说了一个谎
就必须说很多个来圆上一个谎


谎言
带来的只是伤害和欺骗
或是欺骗自己

White lies are still, lies.

说谎是一种惯性


有些人就是没有办法说实话
无关要紧的小事也要说谎


有些人说谎是因为没有安全感
被害妄想症发作时
因为想自我保护而说谎


有些人说谎
是为了自我利益而说谎


不管为了什么原因
当一句谎言出现
就有一颗心即将被伤害割破

I should have known better. 

Even the 'truth' itself, is made up of thousands of lies.

如果一开始能够坦诚

就不需要活得这么累了

每天担心害怕谎言被揭穿识破

还要说无数个谎来圆谎

虚假的世界

虚伪的人类

请学会知足，请学会感恩。

时间每天都在倒数
现在距离final还有仅仅的18天罢了
OMG ! 18天啊！
你每天还在那边虚渡光阴
又想fail多一次是吗？= =




今天从射星星者那里找到了一个video。
也是第一次看video看到哭。我自己也吓到为什么我会哭到那样惨。
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈 XD

平时看戏，看电影，从来都不会流半滴泪。可是今天竟然哭到半死。
哈哈哈哈 不是我泪腺变发达了啦。这个video真的很感人。

这个人是我的学长。他小时候失去双亲，过后被领养。成绩超优，STPM拿了4科，外加一科Further Math，而且这科我学校没有老师教，他都自修。结果拿了4A+1A。在我小小的hometown里，他其实蛮出名，他的事迹很多人都听说。
（P/s：射星星者 侵犯你版权一下 哈哈哈哈 :P ）

希望他的故事可以激励你。
也请大家好好想想自己拥有的是不是比他多太多了，而自己又认真对待你的人生了吗？

Treacherous Liaison

Have I not made myself clear?
Or perhaps your stupidity level is much higher than I've thought.
Maybe next time I'll just be more upfront.
Not for any reason but the fact that you're just that dumb.
Sorry.

I'm sorry, but were you dropped on your head as an infant?

Or were you just born that stupid?

Can you like, wise up a little? 

Just a little bit will do.

Mind over matter. I don't mind and you don't matter.

Ps: Virgos are only affected by the people who matter to them. If you hate them, they probably don't care :)

Get the fuck out of my life if you want. 

I would love to send you off with a big broad smile on my face, gladly.

你闹够了没？

你越是沉默
他们越是爬到你头上来
越是得寸进尺
越是他妈的犯贱。


请适可而止，犯贱的人。
欢迎对号入座 :)

FUCK YOU, BITCH!
UHH NO. FUCK YOU, BITCHES!
Enough is enough.

真的，够了。


心软是最致命的脆弱。

说加油

璇说得对
一开始你会很难过
可是过后就不会了
你有你的生活要过
你有你的东西要忙
他也有他的生活要过
他也有自己的东西要忙
谁都不会为谁止步

继续前进吧
加油。

6° of Separation

First, you think the worst is a broken heart
What's gonna kill you is the second part
And the third, Is when your world splits down the middle
And fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourself
Fifth, you see them out with someone else
And the sixth, is when you admit that you may have fucked up a little.



No there's no starting over,
Without finding closure,
You'd take them back,
No hesitation,
That's when you know you've reached the sixth Degree of separation.

Danny has one of the greatest voices in the world. Thumbs up if you like Danny, too! :)

为自己而活

没有永远不被毁谤的人，也没有永远被赞叹的人。
当你话多的时候，别人会批评你，
当你话少的时候，别人也会批评你，
当你沈默的时候，别人有可能还是会批评你，
在这个世界上，没有一个人没被批评过。

不要因为众生的怀疑，而给自己烦恼；
也不要因为众生的无知，而痛苦了你自己。
走自己的路，让他们去说吧！

不要那么容易让别人牵动你的情绪

甚至左右你的思想。

这是你的人生
自己的命运由自己主宰。

嘿嘿 迟到的生日礼物 

我很喜欢 谢谢你们啦 :)

Illusion

Whenever you're trying to make a decision, whether it is a big one or a small one, something will always come and mess your mind up. That 'something' is commonly known as 'illusion'.



Maybe you thought that you could stay for someone and that someone would actually appreciate that. But no, reality never fails to contradict with your expectation.



Wake up, be wise, do what's best for you. People won't appreciate what you've done for them. Never had. Never do. Never will.

一个人，生活依然精彩。

We live alone. We die alone.
Everything else is just an illusion.

Choices and Paths.

*Tik tok tik tok*
Days are counting down. Every day, every hour, every minute, every second, every millisecond.


Should I transfer to KL next year? I even printed out the analysis of pros and cons that I made myself out of boredom hahaha. However, somehow, I am still unable to come up with a decision. Ohgawdwhy -.-
I'm running out of time. Seriously. Stupid procedures of Sunway Residence compels me to speed up my decision-making process but in fact only deprives me of my precious time to give really good consideration on this matter.


What is holding me back?
Peers?
I would say, No. I've got friends who are surely going to KL in July. But it's kinda weird if you suddenly join the class halfway isn't it -.- And nah, I'm on my own. Following the crowd is never an action of mine.
Family?
No. I'm independent enough to leave home for a month or two. Homesick won't kill me.
WHAT ELSE?
I myself have no idea, too -.-


The environment of Sunway KL is very conducive for studying. But the temptations surrounding you should be taken into account as well - endless entertainments including shopping mall, pubs and clubs, all in walking distance. You might mix with bad friends there. The bad peer influence may get the best of you. The quality of the lecturers is also an important aspect. And nobody can really determine that 'cause it's very subjective and you need to have experience of studying at both the places then only you will have the right to make any judgement.


A big problem is that I don't feel like studying when I'm at JB. I don't know why but I just don't feel like studying -.- FML. I'm just hoping that when I go KL, I will be motivated by all the people studying around me. During my campus visit, there are people studying at every corner of the campus. Which is a good thing, but, on the other hand, kinda stressful too -.-  Whatever, as long as it can motivate me to be hardworking, I really hate the lazy me. And I don't wanna fail any other paper again. I wont't let it slow me down. My aim is to become a master graduate at the age of 22.

                

       






The Kluang gang @ Sunway JB!

JB mates! How I wish KL people can be as nice as them. No drama. No drinking or smoking or clubbing or whatever bad habits.

With the KL gang from Taylor's and also Sunway!
Each and every one of them is so hardworking now.
















What do I really want? If you want a true answer from me, I honestly don't have any idea. I don't know.





When can I come up with an answer? Damn. I hate myself for being so hesitant and irresolute.

可笑

<转>

最可怕的是
他明明很討厭你 還要裝跟你很好

最可怕的是
他跟你很好 卻在別人面前說你壞話

最可怕的是
日見夜見的人你以為跟他無話不說 但他卻有很多事瞞著你

最可怕的是
他也說討厭的人 卻跟他好

最可怕的是
你最好朋友出賣了你

在友情裡連真心都不能給
這才是真正的可笑。

选择快乐

时间走着，
地球转着，
日历翻着，
我们也变着。


从前的无所不谈
已变成了现在的沉默不语
和漠不关心。

虽然考试期间很忙
可我也没忘了找你
但是 你给的又是什么？

敷衍的回复
冷漠的言语
接不下去的对话

好吧 就到此为止
我说过了
反正不是我不给你机会
日后对你我也问心无愧

There comes a time in your life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it and surround yourself with the ones who can make you laugh so hard that you can simply forget all the bad and solely on the good. 

After all, life is too short to be anything but HAPPY. 

And yeah, don't chase after anyone anymore. 

What's gonna happen will happen. Who's gonna stay will stay. 

努力熬完这个考试周吧

虽然第一张考得不是很顺利

但是还有四张 还有四条命XD

考完了就去KL玩玩呗

虽然是一个人去

但我一定会玩得很开心的

有时候 远离这些让自己不开心的人事物

未曾不是件好事

人生就是要快乐。

那些KL的朋友一听到我要过去

都说要出来meet我耶

就连赖 恒 升 都说要出来

美欣说 彩莲和慧心听到我要来都很兴奋

有点受宠若惊叻 :P 哈哈哈哈哈

请不要逼我对你展开报复行动

到时肯定会很难看

拼了命盲目的去争取

最后得到了又怎样

不属于你的东西

即使你握得再紧 

它始终会你手心中溜走

不肯放掉那不属于自己的东西

还搞得自己遍体鳞伤

这又何苦呢？

Scars

There's always a little truth behind each "just kidding".
And there's always a little scar left behind after each fight or argument.


They say trust is like a piece of paper. Once it's crumpled, it cannot be perfect again.
The same theory applies to friendship.


I knew that you were that kind of person. I knew it all along.
I knew you were two-faced.
But I actually chose to turn a blind eye to it.
And I tried to change you.


But I failed. Totally failed.
And it nearly cost our friendship.


Okay. You still gave in at last.
Well, you should. You ought to.
I wasn't even wrong in the first place.
If you didn't give in this time, I have no idea if I will end our friendship like this.
But you did. It shows that you value our friendship more than your worthless ego.
So I won't pursue this matter anymore. Let bygones be bygones. The hurt cannot be undone anyway.
I choose to let go of this shit and please don't make me regret it.

Be nice. But never allow yourself to be stepped on like a piece of shit.

Just because you know I will always be there for you.

 It doesn't mean that you can take me for granted.

Dear two-faced person, I can't decide which face of yours to slap first. My mind says, slap both.

回首来时路

才发现

原来一切的一切都没有永远

几个月前 

你我他和她是多么的要好

现在

他和她 变了 变回陌生人了。

你和她 也变了。

就剩下我和你。

但是 我总有这么一种感觉

那就是

你，和我，也要开始变了

明明只是件小到非常渺茫的事情

你却可以如此小题大做

真是佩服。

有时候
当你身边的一切都开始变了

也许是时候 

停止你对别人的指指点点

自己检讨检讨一番吧。

人家说

看别人不爽是自己修养不够。

你 你 你

看谁都不爽 

证明你的内涵实在是......

我很珍惜你 所以才一直对你一忍再忍

但是 

请别把我对你的宽容当作你胡闹的资本

要冷战就继续冷战下去吧

反正不是我的错 

我绝不低头

怎样 我就是这么倔强。

哦，还有

如果我们的感情就这么结束了

请你记得

当初不是我选择放弃的哦 :)

也许有一天你后悔了

请你记得

当初是谁先止步 

是谁先选择不走完那条路

只有失去才会珍惜。

不曾失去，又怎能体会到拥有的可贵？

I still keep your photograph, I remember how we used to laugh.

I love looking back at my previous posts, including the ones in draft. Words preserve memories from being forgotten and fading.

They say seeing people change hurts. 

But I think what hurts more is remembering who they used to be.

"The only thing constant in life is change."

I watch you both get close,  become friends, become best friends, quarrel, and finally become strangers again. Why would the outcome be like this? What went wrong? Tonnes of questions ran through my mind. Puzzled, unsolved. 

This pic is for you :)

Just remember that you were not the one who gave up and the one who stopped trying.

We should treasure everything we have right now, 'cause the world is full of imponderables. 

Always forgive, as the one you hate might not wake up to see tomorrow. 

Having a best friend whom you can you tell everything to is the best thing on earth.

But if you don't have one yet, be patient, you will find it one day, just not today.

No one has the duty or obligation to treat you good. Take it easy bro.

But when someone treats you like an option, help them narrow their choices by removing yourself from the equation. It's that simple. If someone treats you like garbage, maybe a little revenge-y counter back will help to let them know you are not a pushover. Maybe things will get a little uglier, of course. But who cares? At least you have fought back ;) *mumbling all the way* MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Little devilish plans are hatching on my mind. HAHAHA.

Will be away for a week's time to focus on my coming mock exam. See ya soon.

Will there be this one day?

Will there be a day...
When you wake up and find out that the whole world has turned against you?
When the ones you truly care about just sit back and watch you drown?
When you realize you mean nothing to the ones who mean the world to you?
When you completely understand and accept the truth that this world is just that realistic and brutal?
When you realize those who appear as saints in front of you are actually stabbing your back viciously without your knowledge?
When you're just all by yourself and you know you gotta be strong on your own and continue your journey on your little weak limps?
When you finally see the truth behind all the ugly lies and cover ups that you have been deceived of all the time?
When you realize yourself that this world is not that promisingly beautiful as you were told as an innocent child a decade ago?


These days will befall us, all of us. Because we all have to grow up. God will make us strong.

Can I remain as the innocent ignorant carefree child forever? I don't wanna see the ugly side of this world.

I know this is just the beginning of my 18 journey. Be strong, I will.

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精神分裂？

今晚又怎么了

明明去唱K过后还很开心的

回宿舍冲了凉

开了电脑后

弄完了我的Cotton On网购

然后又emo了

整个心情很沉重

就连自己也说不出是什么原因

这夜晚很宁静

就让我在这里写篇一点内容都没有的文章吧

有时真的很讨厌自己

有时又很讨厌全世界

你真的心理有病

最近到底怎么了

夜晚一降临就会emo

我看你一定是疯了。

你到底想怎样？

我想做回小孩子
过着无忧无虑的生活

不必看到这世间的丑陋
不必面对这恶心的世俗

有种想马上飙车去海边咆哮的冲动。

有一种情绪是不具名的悲伤

每次在来回新山居銮的路途中一定会想了很多
坐车坐巴士 都一样睡不着
照惯例的望着窗外
毫无目的的看着那不停移动的树林
就开始想了很多东西
然后就会莫名的emo了 -.-

“选择读CAT，是否真的错了？”
这个问题 一直出现在我脑海中
我一直不断地问自己
你以后确定要在尔虞我诈弱肉强食的商场上工作？
身为会计师你能确保你以后不会受金钱名利的诱惑去做假账？
你能够保留你原本的德行吗？

当初选择弃理从商
是否真的错了？
看着Pre-U的朋友们每天在分享做实验的乐趣
我还真是羡慕咧 :(

现在每天上课都迟到= =
毅力不够 加上每晚最早一点睡觉
要怎样在8点起身叻？
以前中学时期因为是坐朋友的车去上学
加上有妈妈叫我起床
所以不管前一晚多么迟睡
隔天一早还是可以起床
现在
一个人在外面
没有室友
没有充足的睡眠
没有毅力
答案就是每天迟到= =
有时还直接翘课啊
我几时变成这个样子了 :(

还有一样东西
就是变得越来越厉害花钱了= =
那天去Cotton On
又花了193块@@
再去吃个Arashi Shabu-shabu
一个中午200多块不见掉了

常常在想
我在JB都酱厉害花钱了
去到KL还不死
Sunway KL隔壁就是Sunway Pyramid啊啊啊啊
我看我会每天去花个50块吧= =

还有就是友谊方面也很烦啦

烦啊烦啊
emo啊emo啊
只有部落格来听我说话
还有部落格最好 :)

Back even stronger

It has been a while since I last updated my blog. HAHHAHA. Time really flies. One week of mid-term break just passed like that. Where most of the time were spent on sleep and studying -.- Nawww that sucks!

I'm just so thankful to God that I passed my paper today! It's a resit. Things would suck if I fail again. Truth be told, I didn't even finish the whole syllabus and I just went to sit for the examination like that. LOL. Really have to THANK GOD that I passed! :)

Lesson learnt : Never study last minute. 'Cause if you do so, you're gonna fail for sure.

Here are some pics taken in this not-term-break term break! HAHHA.

With the old old friend, Jiahui! :D

The KAOBEHs! Muahahha I love this pic so much XD

Group picha! :D

With Kelvin, Weiting and David! :D 

Hmm Idk when is the next time we'll take a pic of four of us again. Maybe December? 

Well well well. My results is out. It was released at 5am sharp(UK time) and 12pm(Malaysia time).

Mom called before 12, sounding a little excited to hear the good news from me. But the results had not been released at the moment. So we ended the call.

At 12pm, a friend of mine barged into the classroom, saying that he got a text from UK, stating the results of all his three papers. He passed two and failed one.
What immediately followed by was the heart-pounding-mind-racing sensation. OMG. I got an email from ACCA! It just popped up and scared the hell outta me. Breathe in, breathe out. I summoned my courage to open that 'holy' email which I've been anticipating. And this is what I get.








Okay I failed. At that instance I was emotionless. Deep down I know that I deserve to fail. Cause' I didn't give it my best. I didn't put in much effort.

Now just hope that I can pass in the next resit of this paper. I will do my best this time. Really.

Don't ask me. Don't comfort me. I just need to be alone. Thanks.

Sorry Mom, I failed you.

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兄弟

首先我要声明我每次用英文写blog 不是要炫耀还是什么的 只是因为有人看了我的华文post后跟我说 诶 你的华文真的很烂叻 还是用英文写比较好啦! 是有点hurt咯= = 阿不过我真的每次用华文写都会词穷叻!然后要想很久才有恰当的词汇出现在脑海了= = 可是我有时心血来潮要用华文写 你们就忍着看呗 哈哈哈哈哈

现在是怎样 明天考试考6课只读了一课 还跑去开电脑!?
唉  实在抵挡不了fb的魅力 中毒太深= = 每天至少要开一次 我跟朋友说过 如果我有一天没有上fb 你记得打电话给我家人跟他们说我被绑架了 XD

Bullshit完毕 ok 来进入正题

Storytime开始~~ 我本来开fb聊天聊到很开心 然后突然有个不重视我的人post一个东西在某个group里 当时有一股冲动要leave group 不懂做莫 可能因为这个人太不重视我了 我一直都很重视他 现在突然看到他的名字我很不爽 不明的不爽. 其实我们一直以来都蛮好的 只是近两三个月来疏远了好多好多... 每次回家叫他出来喝茶他都有多多借口 不然就是不回信息 可是你看他跟异性出去又100次100次没有问题哦 所以答案很明显了咯 而且这个人做事超明显的= = 他珍惜你这个朋友就会一直跟你保持联络 不珍惜的他理你都懒惰理 广东人说"choi lei dou so"  然后他每次会主动去约其他兄弟们喝茶 可是就是不会约我 这点我也看开了 他不把我当兄弟. 现在这个人在筹备一个东西 根本我就不可以去嘛 不过他也没有考量到我 也算了吧. 我没有想去的意思 真的 没有在骗你们 大家都疏远了 一起去XX会有不小的尴尬吧. 昔日大家一起玩在一块儿的画面已不可能再度重现 因为现在大家之间都有着一道无形的隔阂 这道隔阂 很深 很深.

那天去喝茶 无意发现大家有的共同话题越来越少 以往充满默契的哈哈大笑早已变成敷衍出来的陪笑 "呵呵呵" 那么的不真诚．是地理位置的关系吗? 现在大家都好像分派了似的 KL那边一派  居銮自己一派  然后JB和SG又联盟组成另一派 现在大家回居銮都是跟派回了.大叹. 当初毕业前说好的什么保持联络 什么永远的兄弟 什么BFF 为什么通通通通都化为了乌有? 为什么你们不能实现你们的承诺? 我一直以来都很努力的在与你们保持联系 爽不爽就fb pop你一下 或是丢一些link过去 阿不然你要我怎么开话题啊?要找个话题根本就是超难好不好 你们每次回除了lol还是lol 然后聊了几句就没有再回复了 不懂你们真的是如此忙碌还是什么 可是 你们有没有想过难道我就不忙吗? 我也是在外读书的好不好 你有assignment我也有 你有presentation我也有啊 你有test我的也不少你

有些问题我们心里已有了答案 就不要去问吧 当别人亲口告诉你那答案时 你未必能接受.
When someone means to you, you will find time for them. No matter how busy you are.
是看你愿不愿意腾出时间而已.

不过我也不怪他啦 谁可以给我怪? 自己人缘差 自己没有能力让别人记得你
我很怕有那么一天 所有人都忘记我
不过这不会是突然发生的事情
而是渐渐的
现在开始已经有人遗忘我了


Sad啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!!


我现在最不想失去的是我的好兄弟David 现在也只有这么一个兄弟可以谈心事了 其他的聊了几句就没话题. 唉 可悲啊黄楷聪 真的可悲. 谁叫你form5的时候搞自闭 不要去mix人 整天就坐在课室里面赶功课 可是又不见得你功课做得很快哦= = 现在你真的是什么都没有了咯 SPM考什么烂成绩出来 现在兄弟也只有那么一个 真的是loser.

本来想要明年去KL读书的 可是我最好的bro在新加坡 现在人在JB 爽不爽就过去新加坡找他 反正拿了护照和两件衣就可以走了 搭个巴士15分钟就到关卡 真的是太方便了
可是 去了KL 一定很少回来 车程不短啊 再说车票也很贵= = 哪里像jb 回家才1个小时多 车票也不过10块罢了 除了距离之外 我这个兄弟明天可能去当兵了 一当就是两年 当兵期间只能拜五晚上出来 礼拜早上又进回去兵营 根本没有时间回居銮 如果我在这两年内还去KL 那我岂不是肯定会跟他失去联络? 如果我在JB的话 周末还可以去找他 或者他过来JB 正如我刚所说的 反正近近罢了嘛 哈哈哈

那天他回去居銮我留在JB 然后他在居銮跟我说 "诶 你没有回来我很无聊叻 要喝茶都没有人陪. 下次你没有回我也不要回了" 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈 虽然是有听起来那么一点点gay的话 可是真的很窝心 原来这兄珍惜我 第一次有人跟我说没有我很显 原来不是所有人都不care我的 哈哈哈哈哈 爽啊~~~~XD

可是 但是 可是
难道我为了不要失去这个兄弟就不要去KL不要出国读书?? 永远留在JB??
我知道人都要分离
天下无不散之筵席
我知道 我都知道
可是心里就是忍不住失去一个可以谈心的兄弟
毕竟我活了18年来 他真的是我最珍惜的兄弟 最可以敞开心胸 无所不谈的兄弟
NO SECRETS.
唉 看老天怎么安排吧. 有缘的话我们的兄弟情不会败给距离.


可能你们会觉得这篇有点gay 哈哈哈
可是我真的不是gay 只是表达能力太差才会造成你们有这种想法= =
我是喜欢女人的! 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈


Haizz 最近不懂做莫很emo. 尤其是每次在考试周都会emo!
是诅咒吗= = emo了就会丢掉书本跑来写blog发泄
还是给郑小姐影响到?哈哈哈
这是我的地盘 不爽就别看啊(超拽) 哈哈哈哈


关电脑去温书了 再不读明天就等死了!!
Good night, world.

Drifting apart.

Have been thinking a lot recently. Reminiscing those old times in high school has become part of my daily life.

"It is not hard to watch people change. The hardest part is to remember who they used to be."

Sadness. Cause' I'm drifting apart from some of my friends now. I hate this feeling :(

Time flies. People change. Colors fade. 

But memories don't.

Guess what! I found this pic which matches my blog so well! :D

Never compare yourself with others.

 You are who you are. Live your life out loud! :D

It is a great accomplishment to be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else. BE YOU. 

Ah, you don't care.

I hate how ironic things can be.


Sometimes the people you care about the most don't give a fuck about you. And the people you never wish for their attention are the ones who really care about you.


Why must I start the conversation every single time? Because I'm afraid of the drifting. That's the reason why I keep trying to talk to you. But you make me feel like you don't need me. And I'm always your second option. No, not second. Maybe third, forth, or fifth. Or last.


Maybe that's what people who care too much get in return. Sometimes you have to let yourself not to care so much so that you can feel better.

I have feelings, okay? Just because I don't show it doesn't mean I don't. I do feel unwanted at times.

From now on, if you don't talk to me so neither will me. Friendship needs commitment from both parties, not just one.



In life, we never lose friends. We only learn who the TRUE ones are.