Illusion

Whenever you're trying to make a decision, whether it is a big one or a small one, something will always come and mess your mind up. That 'something' is commonly known as 'illusion'.



Maybe you thought that you could stay for someone and that someone would actually appreciate that. But no, reality never fails to contradict with your expectation.



Wake up, be wise, do what's best for you. People won't appreciate what you've done for them. Never had. Never do. Never will.

一个人，生活依然精彩。

We live alone. We die alone.
Everything else is just an illusion.

Choices and Paths.

*Tik tok tik tok*
Days are counting down. Every day, every hour, every minute, every second, every millisecond.


Should I transfer to KL next year? I even printed out the analysis of pros and cons that I made myself out of boredom hahaha. However, somehow, I am still unable to come up with a decision. Ohgawdwhy -.-
I'm running out of time. Seriously. Stupid procedures of Sunway Residence compels me to speed up my decision-making process but in fact only deprives me of my precious time to give really good consideration on this matter.


What is holding me back?
Peers?
I would say, No. I've got friends who are surely going to KL in July. But it's kinda weird if you suddenly join the class halfway isn't it -.- And nah, I'm on my own. Following the crowd is never an action of mine.
Family?
No. I'm independent enough to leave home for a month or two. Homesick won't kill me.
WHAT ELSE?
I myself have no idea, too -.-


The environment of Sunway KL is very conducive for studying. But the temptations surrounding you should be taken into account as well - endless entertainments including shopping mall, pubs and clubs, all in walking distance. You might mix with bad friends there. The bad peer influence may get the best of you. The quality of the lecturers is also an important aspect. And nobody can really determine that 'cause it's very subjective and you need to have experience of studying at both the places then only you will have the right to make any judgement.


A big problem is that I don't feel like studying when I'm at JB. I don't know why but I just don't feel like studying -.- FML. I'm just hoping that when I go KL, I will be motivated by all the people studying around me. During my campus visit, there are people studying at every corner of the campus. Which is a good thing, but, on the other hand, kinda stressful too -.-  Whatever, as long as it can motivate me to be hardworking, I really hate the lazy me. And I don't wanna fail any other paper again. I wont't let it slow me down. My aim is to become a master graduate at the age of 22.

                

       






The Kluang gang @ Sunway JB!

JB mates! How I wish KL people can be as nice as them. No drama. No drinking or smoking or clubbing or whatever bad habits.

With the KL gang from Taylor's and also Sunway!
Each and every one of them is so hardworking now.
















What do I really want? If you want a true answer from me, I honestly don't have any idea. I don't know.





When can I come up with an answer? Damn. I hate myself for being so hesitant and irresolute.

可笑

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最可怕的是
他明明很討厭你 還要裝跟你很好

最可怕的是
他跟你很好 卻在別人面前說你壞話

最可怕的是
日見夜見的人你以為跟他無話不說 但他卻有很多事瞞著你

最可怕的是
他也說討厭的人 卻跟他好

最可怕的是
你最好朋友出賣了你

在友情裡連真心都不能給
這才是真正的可笑。

选择快乐

时间走着，
地球转着，
日历翻着，
我们也变着。


从前的无所不谈
已变成了现在的沉默不语
和漠不关心。

虽然考试期间很忙
可我也没忘了找你
但是 你给的又是什么？

敷衍的回复
冷漠的言语
接不下去的对话

好吧 就到此为止
我说过了
反正不是我不给你机会
日后对你我也问心无愧

There comes a time in your life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it and surround yourself with the ones who can make you laugh so hard that you can simply forget all the bad and solely on the good. 

After all, life is too short to be anything but HAPPY. 

And yeah, don't chase after anyone anymore. 

What's gonna happen will happen. Who's gonna stay will stay. 

努力熬完这个考试周吧

虽然第一张考得不是很顺利

但是还有四张 还有四条命XD

考完了就去KL玩玩呗

虽然是一个人去

但我一定会玩得很开心的

有时候 远离这些让自己不开心的人事物

未曾不是件好事

人生就是要快乐。

那些KL的朋友一听到我要过去

都说要出来meet我耶

就连赖 恒 升 都说要出来

美欣说 彩莲和慧心听到我要来都很兴奋

有点受宠若惊叻 :P 哈哈哈哈哈

请不要逼我对你展开报复行动

到时肯定会很难看

拼了命盲目的去争取

最后得到了又怎样

不属于你的东西

即使你握得再紧 

它始终会你手心中溜走

不肯放掉那不属于自己的东西

还搞得自己遍体鳞伤

这又何苦呢？

Scars

There's always a little truth behind each "just kidding".
And there's always a little scar left behind after each fight or argument.


They say trust is like a piece of paper. Once it's crumpled, it cannot be perfect again.
The same theory applies to friendship.


I knew that you were that kind of person. I knew it all along.
I knew you were two-faced.
But I actually chose to turn a blind eye to it.
And I tried to change you.


But I failed. Totally failed.
And it nearly cost our friendship.


Okay. You still gave in at last.
Well, you should. You ought to.
I wasn't even wrong in the first place.
If you didn't give in this time, I have no idea if I will end our friendship like this.
But you did. It shows that you value our friendship more than your worthless ego.
So I won't pursue this matter anymore. Let bygones be bygones. The hurt cannot be undone anyway.
I choose to let go of this shit and please don't make me regret it.

Be nice. But never allow yourself to be stepped on like a piece of shit.

Just because you know I will always be there for you.

 It doesn't mean that you can take me for granted.

Dear two-faced person, I can't decide which face of yours to slap first. My mind says, slap both.

回首来时路

才发现

原来一切的一切都没有永远

几个月前 

你我他和她是多么的要好

现在

他和她 变了 变回陌生人了。

你和她 也变了。

就剩下我和你。

但是 我总有这么一种感觉

那就是

你，和我，也要开始变了

明明只是件小到非常渺茫的事情

你却可以如此小题大做

真是佩服。

有时候
当你身边的一切都开始变了

也许是时候 

停止你对别人的指指点点

自己检讨检讨一番吧。

人家说

看别人不爽是自己修养不够。

你 你 你

看谁都不爽 

证明你的内涵实在是......

我很珍惜你 所以才一直对你一忍再忍

但是 

请别把我对你的宽容当作你胡闹的资本

要冷战就继续冷战下去吧

反正不是我的错 

我绝不低头

怎样 我就是这么倔强。

哦，还有

如果我们的感情就这么结束了

请你记得

当初不是我选择放弃的哦 :)

也许有一天你后悔了

请你记得

当初是谁先止步 

是谁先选择不走完那条路

只有失去才会珍惜。

不曾失去，又怎能体会到拥有的可贵？

I still keep your photograph, I remember how we used to laugh.

I love looking back at my previous posts, including the ones in draft. Words preserve memories from being forgotten and fading.

They say seeing people change hurts. 

But I think what hurts more is remembering who they used to be.

"The only thing constant in life is change."

I watch you both get close,  become friends, become best friends, quarrel, and finally become strangers again. Why would the outcome be like this? What went wrong? Tonnes of questions ran through my mind. Puzzled, unsolved. 

This pic is for you :)

Just remember that you were not the one who gave up and the one who stopped trying.

We should treasure everything we have right now, 'cause the world is full of imponderables. 

Always forgive, as the one you hate might not wake up to see tomorrow. 

Having a best friend whom you can you tell everything to is the best thing on earth.

But if you don't have one yet, be patient, you will find it one day, just not today.

No one has the duty or obligation to treat you good. Take it easy bro.

But when someone treats you like an option, help them narrow their choices by removing yourself from the equation. It's that simple. If someone treats you like garbage, maybe a little revenge-y counter back will help to let them know you are not a pushover. Maybe things will get a little uglier, of course. But who cares? At least you have fought back ;) *mumbling all the way* MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Little devilish plans are hatching on my mind. HAHAHA.

Will be away for a week's time to focus on my coming mock exam. See ya soon.

Will there be this one day?

Will there be a day...
When you wake up and find out that the whole world has turned against you?
When the ones you truly care about just sit back and watch you drown?
When you realize you mean nothing to the ones who mean the world to you?
When you completely understand and accept the truth that this world is just that realistic and brutal?
When you realize those who appear as saints in front of you are actually stabbing your back viciously without your knowledge?
When you're just all by yourself and you know you gotta be strong on your own and continue your journey on your little weak limps?
When you finally see the truth behind all the ugly lies and cover ups that you have been deceived of all the time?
When you realize yourself that this world is not that promisingly beautiful as you were told as an innocent child a decade ago?


These days will befall us, all of us. Because we all have to grow up. God will make us strong.

Can I remain as the innocent ignorant carefree child forever? I don't wanna see the ugly side of this world.

I know this is just the beginning of my 18 journey. Be strong, I will.

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